It was my first live performance. I felt nervous so I decided to wear a silver mask. But the room was too hot and I couldn't breath so I removed with screaming "I can't breath!!!".
"Is this potato? Is this rice?"
I was questioning. I was planing to question to audience but I got confused that which language I need to use for question. "Which one is Japanese? English?"
The music behind was really working well. I almost forgot about TIME and SPACE. That's why I may have forgotten which language is which.
Rice was sticking to my hands too much like as my identity as Japanese.
Stepping on a stage was fun but also it was stressful because I needed to care which language I was using.
In the end of the performance, I was feeling like I wanted to attach my self to potatoes so I became a small potato in a circle of potatoes. But I gradually felt a black cloud in my mind, so I went out and became a potato outside of potatoes again. I tried to go in the circle of potatoes using my fingers but I felt outsider of potatoes.
After the performance, I realized that I may be a potato but I was not born in a potato, I was born in rice. It's like I was born as a girl but I had a boy's mind.
"Watashi('I' in Japanese)"and "I"
'Watashi' means 'I' in Japanese but we don't usually use that often because we know who you want to talk about.
I used a helmet made of foil to be an alien in the beginning because I found my situation in the UK was quite alienated.
I was putting my leg into and out a circle of potatoes. Potatoes used to be immigrants. They used to be recognized as a vegetation of a devil. Nevertheless, they turned a main nutrition now. I wanted to use potatoes as my unbalanced situation.
At that time, I was struggling with my identity as Japanese and also adapting to the new culture. I used potatoes and rice to express the feeling.
I asked what a potato and rice are in Japanese and English. Potato represents Europe and Rice represents Asia. I wanted to experience different nuances in the words but the same meanings.
Rice sticked to my hands so much like my identity as Japanese sticked to me.